It was the change. I was comfortable and at ease in the USA. My injury was holding me back but I had accepted it and was managing it. My lifestyle was simple, filled with mountains and passionate people. I did not want to leave.
The change of seasons was coming. The leaves were turning yellow. And that also meant it was getting colder. I arrived in Chamonix just in time for the UTMB hype.
It is always wonderful to be part of the nerves that surround your friends as they prepare to race. And then came the UTMB change. The course was shortened and flattened. Disappointment was huge and it was difficult not to feel that.
I was unmotivated. From almost 3months of battling with injury, I physically felt slow, lethargic and heavy. From almost 3 months of battling with race decisions, I mentally felt slow, lethargic and heavy. I had pulled out of the Pikes Ascent (but replaced it with a very proud and happy weekend at Leadville100)
Then when I arrived in Europe I pulled out of the World Mountain Running Championships in Italy where I would have represented NZ. I needed to change something. Cavalls del Vent is coming up. The next race for me in the SkyRunning Ultra series. It is going to be long and hard. I am scared and excited for it. The womens record sitting at 11.37hrs, over 84.2km, with 6000m of ascent. And it is going to be a battle of the best with an extremely stacked field in both the mens and womens catergories.
So our wonderful team doctor suggested I do a detox. To cleanse the body, to take everything back to basics, to find some routine. And once the body felt better, my mind would feel better too. A weight would be lifted and my confidence would come back. Grapes was the answer. Grapes and only grapes. That was going to be the change I would need.
So 5 days into only eating grapes, I actually feel good. I have done long slow run/walks in the mountains from Matterhorn to Canazei. I am now in Sesto – Dolomites – SudTirol – Italy/Austria, for the Drei Zinnen Marathon. It is my favourite race which I know will make me smile.
Change is all part of our lives. It is how we deal with it that counts. We all go through ups and downs. And it is accepting both of those and appreciating them. It makes us human. I have always had a lot of change. And I get tired of it sometimes. But it is what makes me me. It is why I travel and run, because I love it. Change.